Elsewhere

Where are you?

You disappear; no longer here

This year you are Elsewhere 

A rainbow that doesn’t end

A trick of light revealing the unsaid

A peace from the rain in my soul

Our future sold to Azrael

They say the name of Death

Like an old friend

You didn’t want to see

But you happened to meet

There’s an empty seat at the table

Not because you didn’t want to be here

Not because you didn’t care

Not because you were unaware

All who gather around

No longer hear the sound of your voice

It wasn’t by choice

I still sit next to you

And embrace the silent stream of tears

You would wipe away if you were here

And I grip the fancy table cloth

The best China dishes 

The display that everything’s okay

And will the pain away

This holiday

They say there’s a time limit to the pain

Or times it is at its worst

But you deserve to know

Life without you hurts

They try to find a blessing in a curse

Their words aren’t buried like you in dirt

Instead they recommend

The intensity of grief is relieved over time

But I was yours

And you were mine

There will be days I can’t see through the storm

Or wiggle through the dirt like a worm

Determined to make it in the dark

You were my spark

So here I sit

Losing everything I planned

And I’ll tell you again

I’ll never beat around the bush

Or overlook the cranny and the nook

I’ll say it all as I fall to my knees

Pass the peas please

Someone says

I open my eyes

And feel your hand

The journey may be over for you

But I will fill your plate

And not hesitate

On this date

To tell you I understand

And stand to make a toast

That even though I can’t get you back

I will double your impact

And love just like you

As you were the glue to us all

I will find you Elsewhere 

When it is my time

Until then

I am prepared

To be the light you left behind

I won’t just live by trying to rewind

Thank you for being the wind beneath my wings

The tears will continue to sting

But I hold onto your ending

That you had dignity all the way

And picked on me when I was shy

I long to find a better goodbye

Yet this is all that is here

I’ll always wait for you to appear

But today I will just hold you dear

Maybe I’ll find the place you rest

In the sky or in my head

I will seek the wisdom from life

I will not turn back from strife

I will simply be yours forever

Come what may, in any weather

We will always be together

Even if it’s Elsewhere

On a lonely cloud

I am bound to you

Where are you?

It’s like ABCs or 2 + 2

The formula is to love like you

About

Sarah Jeanne Browne is a wisdom collector who assisted Tiny Buddha with such projects and then formed her own philosophy; writer for Forbes and other popular self-help sites (and now deconstructs self-help as the industry can be misleading); speaker for organizations such as The Peal Center, Pennsylvania Youth Leadership Network, The Woodlands Foundation, Reimagine, various podcasts and more; activist for human and animal rights; innovator and problem solver such as creating a way to connect with kids for EndCAN - LOVES: Listen, Open Up, Validate, Explain, and Solve Together; brand and social media consultant; and lived experience speaker and writer with bipolar, dyscalculia, and AuDHD.

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